Response to Gun Training Reports
June 20th, 2008
Dear Dr. Piazza,
I’m really no one special, not a celebrity, high profile businessman or a member of the armed forces. I’m just a guy who cares deeply about protecting myself, my family and loved ones. In all reality, I’m usually the guy who criminals see as a target.
The one thing I have always feared the most is the inability to act when my life is threatened. Running through the scenarios in my head I always freeze and am unable to pull the trigger, or fight back, or defend myself. In a real life situation that happened to me when I was a teenager, the inability to act nearly killed me.
I was at a friends house waiting for him to return from the store when I heard a knock on the door. I immediately opened it because I knew this person and went to school with him. He started asking me about some missing sports cards of his that where stolen from his house. I could see he was very upset and I tried everything to calm him down. He became exceedingly irate and began to accuse me of stealing them. I had a feeling that this would get physical so I tried to prepare myself. But at the same time, knowing I did nothing wrong, I did not want a confrontation.
He lunged and somehow got behind me with my shirt in his hands, wrapped around my throat and was choking me. It happened so fast all I could do was stand there, limp, my arms dangling at my side, seemingly lifeless and unmoving. I kept thinking in my head back to my Kenpo training, I knew what to do, I knew how to overcome this but somehow I just could not move. In my mind I was screaming at my body to do something, do anything but stand there but it was like I was paralyzed and as my face started becoming blue and he wasn’t letting go, I know he was going to choke me to death.
It seemed like forever, I could no longer hold my head up, my body was starting to crumble beneath me, he was saying foul things in my ear but I couldn’t hear them, I was blacking out. Then seemingly out of nowhere, just as I was about to fall to the ground a large figure ran up to me and tackled the assailant to the ground. A fist fight ensued and was over by the time I caught my breath.
My friend helped me to my feet and asked if I was alright. I was grateful that he came back home in time and thanked him. He saved me, but relief was the last thing I felt. I held a purple belt in Shaolin Kenpo, I studied swordplay and martial arts for years before that and they teach you exactly what to do when something like this happens, in fact it’s one of the first things they teach. But my mind, my mind was not ready for the challenge where my body was and it failed to react at the time where it was needed the most.
So after 10 years that image still plays in my mind, that feeling of helplessness, that inability to act and I am thankful that I came across your website and signed up for the reports. In just a few pages of text I’ve been able to transform those feelings of helplessness into one of hyper awareness and alert.
I’m not a rich guy, as I stated above, I have trouble even paying the bills. But I am saving up all my pennies in hopes that I can take your course one day and never have to experience that feeling again. I hope one day to repay your gift of knowledge. But for now I would like extend my gratitude and thanks. Thank you for putting me on the path of awareness..